It's a very slow process - two steps forward, one step back - but I'm inching in the right direction. - Rob Reiner

January 16, 2014

The Scale Made Me Do It...It's Evil!

I have a love/hate, no wait make that a hate/hate relationship with my scale and I think the feeling is mutual. I punish it, it punishes me - it’s a vicious circle.

True Story….
As I’m getting back into my regular training routine again, I’m trying to clean up my diet and lose some weight.  I had been eating pretty well all week and feeling good about how things were going.  On Wed morning I got up, and like I do every morning, I weighed myself.  Down 2 Pounds!  Fist pump, high five to myself, all smiles!  YES!  Finally…progress.  It’s not a lot of weight, but it’s something.

I eat well all day Wed and after a tough swim workout I eat a salad from Panera and “reward” myself with a Coke….it’s not a great idea, I realize this, but it’s just one Coke.  It’s not the worst thing I can do.
This morning, I wake up.  I’m feeling good…let’s see what my friend the scale has to say this morning.  What’s that??  It says something like “Hey stupid, you can’t drink coke, even if it’s just one and expect to lose weight.  So guess what, remember those 2 pounds you lost, I’m taking them back!”

So what do I do in return – I yell to my friend the scale “Screw you and your stupid number, I’m going to get donuts for breakfast…how do you like that?” 

“Well step on here tomorrow and I’ll show you how I like that” it replies. 
How dare it?  So, I did what I had to do.  I got in my car and went for donuts.  I am honestly not even a huge donut fan, but somehow it just felt right.  It was my way of telling the scale I didn’t care what it had to say.  Boy I really showed it….

The entire time I’m enjoying my donuts (yes plural) I am thinking to myself – why am I doing this?  What is wrong with me?  Why can’t I just be normal?  Why does eating healthy have to be so hard?  It’s the scale, the scale made me do it…it just pushed me too far this time.
No I did not eat a dozen...I haven't gone completely insane
How is it I can put together a training plan and follow it like a champ, but when it comes to something simple like just eating the right things, I can’t do it to save my life.  I’m so frustrated with myself right now I could scream.

I know for one, I probably shouldn’t weigh myself every day.  I’ve been told this a million times, but I love the check in – the validation when the number is going the right way, but man when it doesn’t I self-implode.
Ok, well now you know more about me and my crazy than you probably really cared to…..but am I alone in this or do others out there share my problems….help J

 

 

 

 

25 comments:

  1. Glad you mentioned donut(s) ... you told me it was THREE!!!

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  2. Now I want donuts...

    I weigh myself every day, but I tend to just shrug and move forward if I have one or two up days. I'm usually just using it to prevent a consistent upward trend 'cause I totally suck at losing weight once it's on (says the 5 pounds I've been trying to shake since January 2013...)

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  3. You are definitely not alone! I don't weigh myself every day - I try to stick to once a week, but I have definitely experienced the diet imploding as a result of a not nice number from the scale!! And let's face it, sometimes you just need a donut (or two) or a coke!

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  4. What about eating only donuts/ treats that you make yourself? At least you'll feel better about having put the labor in to do it. :)

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  5. HA! I have the same love hate relationship with my scale and I get on it every a.m. like some sort of obsessive compulsive self hater. I honestly think there is some fluid retention with hard workouts and I keep telling myself (while stuffing donuts in my face) that I will also track my weight in my training log and see if I see any correlation... You are not alone, if that helps any?

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  6. I hate the scale! Yet I step on it every day even though they say not to do it. I like to know if I am up or down and sometimes it helps me think of what I am shoving in my mouth..and sometimes it makes me soo mad when I have been pretty good and it goes up...

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  7. For the million and first time - don't weigh yourself every day!

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  8. I do it too!! But instead of donuts, I down chocolate!! or Chocolate chips!! (melted in peanut butter!!)

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  9. I only weigh in weekly. Anything else just seems too fraught with variables, like too much water the night before or even how I stand on the scale itself. A week seems more likely to show me a trend (which is going down again, finally).

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  10. I can completely relate. I eat really well or really poorly. If I've eaten a donut for instance I've already ruined it so why not eat all the other things I want ALL DAY LONG.

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  11. I feel the same way. Dam why does it have to be so hard and as I get older even harder. I need a break from food that controls my life. I try to remember NOTHING TASTE AS GOOD AS SKINNY FEELS. Keep pushing forward it one bad day don't make it two bad days and you should be fine.

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  12. I try to weigh myself no more than 1x per week but sometimes it gets the best of me and I get on there back to back when I want to make sure it was right. My husband says I cheat because I wait until after I've gone to the bathroom and just got done breastfeeding my baby and if I haven't eaten breakfast yet, talk about crazy!!! :-) For me eating healthy became so much easier after I became pregnant because I knew someone else health relied on me.

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  13. I love donuts....Frosting filled ones.
    I weigh myself once a week and I get weighed once a week at school, we're doing a biggest loser challenge. With my two lb weight loss in 2 weeks, I am not yet the biggest loser...

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  14. You're singing my (donut) song. I do this. I can run 30 miles in a week, but then fail to find the self-control to eat like a grown-up. The last few months have been much, much better for me - I'm taking meds for depression and anxiety. It was challenging to find an underlying cause for me. It took a lot of work! Wrote about it here: http://goalittlefastermama.blogspot.com/2014/01/im-bad-bad-bloggeri-was-busy-being.html

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  15. Just found your blog!! :)
    Oh my goodness... Now I'm craving a chocolate iced vanilla cream long john!! ... ugh!! Good thing I'm too busy tomorrow to stop at the donut shop! haha!

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  16. Mine broke! And I have been too happy to replace it. But I weigh myself whenever I visit a friend who has one in her bathroom :).

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  17. You sure taught your scale a lesson :-). I weigh myself everyday and eat more salads when it starts going up and more burgers and fries when it starts going down.

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  18. i hate the scale, but i too find myself on it way more than i should. just can't quit it ;)

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  19. I totally understand! I tend to reward myself for losing (which is crazy...). "oh I am down two lbs, I can eat doughnuts today". UGH. Keep after it! Gotta fit in those shorts!

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  20. I'm so sorry about your frustration but I'm right there with you! But I'm still amazed that a coke could tip the scale that much.

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  21. I so hear you, I can be so good with training but put cake in front of me and I want to eat the whole thing. aack!

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  22. Those could be some of the most beautiful, tasty looking donuts I've ever seen. Really. Makes me want to drive to a Dunkin Donuts.

    Don't beat yourself up over a coke and donut. I know it's about more than that but you're human and we all love donuts. I had 2 Sunday morning. Just keep getting fit and the weight will come off. Plus, I hate my scale too. :)

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  23. Today my jeans felt loose for the first time in a couple of months... so, what did I do? I ate a bunch of chocolate chips and mini candy bars. WTH?

    I hate the scale. It's mean and it plays mind games.

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  25. FYI (and NOT to brag) - I'm down 9 pounds so far this year. I weigh myself on the scale in the gym at work each Friday, and I know the scale gets a lot of use/abuse, so I don't know how accurate it is in the fine points. I've even asked maintenance to check when it was last calibrated.

    But my point is that it is showing a trend, which is the best I can hope for.

    I hope you're closing in on your goals.

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