I’m laying it all out here. I’m frustrated to say the least.
I’m going to try not to complain….a lot. I have accomplished some amazing things this year – my first marathon in January, my first Half Ironman in July, and a 5K and half marathon PR. These are not things that come easily. I know this.
But here’s where my pain point is. I don’t know if I will ever know my true potential as an athlete and that’s frustrating. In April I set my half marathon PR with a 10:58 per mile pace. At that time I was easily running my shorter runs in the low 10s and could even eek out a 9 something pace during my speed sessions. I knew, just knew that with continued training I would get my times down even farther and finally inch my way from bottom of the pack to middle of the pack…maybe, just maybe.
But here we are in October and I’m running my slowest times all year. Yesterday I did a 4 mile run and averaged a 13:10 pace. I wasn’t pushing it, and I have a cold, but still it’s tough to see that kind of pace on the Garmin. I have a half marathon Sunday, one I have been looking forward to. It is a super FLAT course, a great one to set a PR on. This is the race my husband Jim has been training for all year (the full marathon of course), and while I can’t say I’ve been training specifically for this race, my plan was to start training pretty intently for it in late July. I totally expected to be able to set a new PR at this race, and now I’ll be lucky to do it in under 2:35.
OBSTACLES have kept me from doing much over the past few months. I am literally a walking injury. If I’m not injured I’m sick. Jim told me that if he didn’t live with me, and see that all my issues are legit he would totally think I was a hypochondriac. I know I have become the “What’s wrong with Michael now” girl, and that’s just downright embarrassing.
So what’s the problem?? It’s multiple things. As many of you know I injured my back several years ago and this really is the central issue for me. I do not have strong core and I know this. I know that to do what I want to do I need a strong core. But, I had been so focused on endurance for my marathon and half ironman I hadn’t had much time to focus on strength. Therefore, my plan post-half ironman was to focus on BETTER, FASTER, STRONGER….that was my new motto! But then, out of nowhere I develop Veritgo….that last for weeks, I can barely walk, much less train. I finally get through that and I sign up for personal training sessions and get ready for improvement. Only one issue, within 2 weeks I had completely wrecked my back. One day after a long run I was reaching across the bathroom tub and threw my back out. I was in bed for 4 days! I spent the next 10 days recovering – stretching, ART therapy, etc. I finally recovered, but have continued to just have a list of minor nagging issues, and 2 colds in the past two months on top of everything else.
So it’s not surprising that I am where I am today. Not really surprising at all, just frustrating. I am ready to push myself to the next level. I have the dedication and mental focus to move forward, but sometimes my body will not let me. Every time I push, it pushes back.
But here I am again. I am signed up for a core/leg strengthening class for cyclists (I’m sure it’s good for runners too). I’m hopeful it will give me what I need, but I am worried that I will injure myself yet again. I know to be careful, and I am…but sometimes it still just happens. So there it is, all my woes. If anyone has thoughts or suggestions I would LOVE to hear them.